My Diaries

It's ur usual time to sleep.. But u want to chat with him.. Speak to him.. Spend time with him.. But u don't get a single text.. Cz he is much busy with life.. Nd u like it that way.. U like to see him busy nd working for wat he likes.. Now u can't txt him.. Cz u will disturb him.. Nor sleep peacefully.. With the fear of missing his txt... U will b checking phone till midnight.. Then slowly fall asleep.. Nd then your phone notification rings.. Your mind jumps from that deep sleep... Awakes sooo fast... Nd heart starts pounding... Nd u check his text... Nd reply in seconds... Nd then he gets busy again... Haha... What a nice feeling... Waiting for someone with all that love and excitement... The way u r in my life is beautiful babes!!!

 Mind says.. get him out of ur head.. it's all done now.. just move on... Heart says.. just stop it.. I'm full of him.. getting him out is taking me away... Mind says.. I don't need you to survive.. Heart says.. Is it a life u want to live? Without me.. Without him.. Without the emotions he filled me with.. Without the memories he loaded you with.. Without the excitement of meeting him.. Without the happiness he always gives.. Without those little moments v cherished.. Without those chats with smiles on.. Without those truth or dares.. Without his cute words.. Without those eyes u always stare at.. Without his smile.. Without life!! It's heaven with him!!

 It's been months... I don't laugh anymore... I don't cry anymore... I don't feel the happiness... I don't feel the pain... I'm never sad... I just don't feel my heart... I'm just irritated all time... And here you come... Making me smile with ur first message... Filling my heart with joy... Keeping me busy all time with ur words... Nd u say u r silent!!! Now i feel every little moment with you... I can feel my heart... Nd it's so vulnerable... U r completely into me... Nd I love this feeling with you!!! I wish I could never bore you... Nd I wish you never left so early... Love u baby!

 You lost that smile sometime back... U never say if there's some problem in ur life... U jst don't want to speak abt anything... May b I'm not the right one for u to share ur feelings... May b u never felt me so close to share... Or it's just so simple that I'm the problem... Or may b u don't want me anymore... Whatever could b the reason... I miss your smile a lot!!! Nd I miss the feeling of being loved... I just hope u enjoy ur life with or without me... Nd always put ur smile on... Cz u know u r really loved!!!

 It's always nice to be with u in my imagination Than to b with u in real time... Cz u never hurt me in my dreams... Cz u r always with me... Cz u never get bored of me... Cz I'm always ur first priority... Cz u always smile nd that's wat make me happy... Cz u love me the way I am... Cz u adore me... Cz we never speak in my imagination nd still v love each other... But I still want you in my real life... Cz ur love isn't imaginary, it's real... Cz u r real... Cz every feeling u share is real and beautiful in ur own way... Nd I love it ur way... Not mine... Miss you baby...

 Yeah... That's what hurts u more And more... No matter how much they ignore you... U still await them blindly... U still love them... They know they r hurting you... May b it's the way they love you... Or may be our relationship needs this feeling of getting ignored to stay for long... May b it's something I should get used to... May b  I'll love it this way... I never know right? All through this... It's been a beautiful life with you baby...

 When u r der I think I'm the strongest I feel i can b without u I feel so independent U make me feel so loved World looks so pink or it's jst probably only u who look pink I never stop smiling when i feel like u r with me Nd hey i almost feel like u r with me all d time U make me feel so special U make my living so good U even get into my dreams to make me smile in d sleep U r always on my mind Nd my heart gets crazy... feeling u in me...

 You know.... A broken heart is a perfect place for love Cz it can't break any If someone loves u they will never break you If u love someone..  No matter what ever they do.. it doesn't break u.. Cz u always love them doing what they love!! If they like leaving u.. U wil love it that way... If they like ignoring u.. U wil love it too... If they love hurting u... U wil love getting hurt... If they love to break u.. Oh babyy u r already broken...  Nd that's y u r perfect... A tree comes out cracking earth.. Nd so is love from a broken heart babes... 

 Never knew how a heart bleeds Now that I'm hurt I can feel it bleed And feels like the pain is flowing down from the heart Feels like it's unbearable Better break the heart and let the pain escape completely Get rid of this endless sorrow Hope it leads to peace